Chaos???

Have u ever heard of chaos? Chaos in malay means 'Huru-hara'. Actually, i dont know why im posting over this..but i just want to say , chaos is the right word rite now for my mind. Its so chaotic in here that i cant think right! How weird, yesterday, i went to all the usual places i always do but with different routes. If its shorter, it'll be fine..but its so fucking far and its like im making a round to get the places. Whoooo! Nevertherless, i got to where i wanted.

These past few days, i've been thinking, and thinking, am I able to be a good teacher? Will i be able to cope up with the students' behaviour? Can i manage to co-operate with the teachers? Will I? Can I? !!!!!!!!!!!!

The more i learn the subjects, the more im having trauma of going to school. Its called Paranoid. Period.

There are other things on my mind too, but i guess i just have to brush them off for a while..or forever. I dont want more n more greys on my head! Plus, my body is getting weaker , day by day, with every puffs i make. Damn those creators of cigarettes! It feels so hard to breathe..sometimes..and i get tired easily..am i dying? One thing i know, i must STOP. Sooner or later. I dont want to lose anyone anymore because of these. I lost my father and my uncle because of it. And yet, i repeated history of smoking. Oh please, my inner will, please, be tough!

CRAPS!

Save yew..nice song

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh)



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