21. 8-2-2010

This day is quite meaningful, and unforgettable for me.

It is the day that i discovered a few things in my life. I was suprised 3 times by people during these few days.

1. I was 'sympathized' by someone i used to LOVE. Which i fucking hate. I dont need your sympathy. I dont need your so-called-barcode-love. I'm sorry to say this, but i ain't THAT desperate. I'd rather be alone than being used like a dumb.

2. An old friend came to Shah Alam! Thank you Yaz and Aya for the suprise!

3. A birthday suprise at AC...was embarrassed at first..but was soooo happy to know that people cared. Thank you everyone!

The birthday suprise and presents are amazing. Thank you Thank you and Thank you.

ps: 143 All.

Kau Tipu Aku

Pernah dulu kau kata kau cintakan ku,
Bertahun lama sanggup kau menungguku,
Hati dan jiwamu hanyalah untukku,
Sumpah dan janjimu memburu untukku.
CHORUS
ya ya ya ya,
Kau, kau tipu aku, x2
Kau tipu aku
Kau tipu aku
Kau curi jiwaku kau gembirakannya,
Kau dakap tanganku,
kau bahagiakannya,
kau kucup bibirku,
Kau menikmatinya,
Kau peluk tubuhku,
Kau ceriakannya.
CHORUS
Kiniku lihat kau berdua dengannya,
Tapi mengapa dia teman karibku,
Tawa gembira,
Musnahkan jiwaku,
Kau hancurkan semua saat manisku.

What's up?

Nothing is up except the ceiling.
But something is wrong with my chest. I feel pain!
I think it's from my heart.
Please, help me! I wonder what's wrong??
Doctor! Doctor!?
I need medical attention now!
What is this feeling i have?
Damn it! It's fucking painful!
My heart is beating so fast that it may explode at any time!
Oh GOD, please do help me.
I can't do much....
I can't stop thinking of HER ..
Oh My God... I think im in LOVE!

Current song :

Hingga akhir nanti
kau tetap jadi pujaan
walau seribu tahun
walau seribu zaman
kutetap menanti

Hingga akhir nanti
kau saja idaman hati
segala rasa cinta
segala rasa sayang
hanyalah untukmu

hingga akhir nanti

Bulan takkan terang
tanpa seri wajahmu
hati takkan tenang
tanpa kehadiranmu
rindu dalam sepi
rindu dalam mimpi
kutetap menanti

hingga akhir nanti

Datanglah kekasih
datanglah padaku
kesetiaan diriku
janganlah kau ragu
betapa kukasih
betapa kurindu
seandai kau tahu
benarnya cintaku

This song is meaningful. I came across it accidentally just now (thanks to a friend who wanted to listen to alleycats earlier yesterday..the folder is still open and i just click randomly on songs)

Facebook.

I've been changing my facebook statuses a lot lately.
Here are some of them that i really like :


1."You don't love a woman because she is beautiful, but she is beautiful because you love her"

2."I may look like my father, but deep inside i have my mother's heart"

3."Everything I do, I do it for you"

4."If you don't try you would never know, if you try you may know, if you have tried and you don't know, you suck!"

5."What's on my mind? Nothing."

And why would i post this? To remind myself in the future what i've done.

Good morning Malaysia!

After long hours of sleeping,i feel rejuvenated(is this the correct spelling?) again!
Last night i was in deep-shit-state , which was very bad as i cant even concentrate on DotA! I overslept and missed the pool game (which i lost rm5 also) .. and then when i woke up this morning..im totally hungry!

Nevertherless, its been a few days with pool , BK , and stuffs. So, im running out of cash $$$$ now. Left about 50 bucks..to survive till the end of the month.
What can i do? any suggestion?

If 1 carton of maggi mee cost about rm4 with 5 packets inside. which means for 15 days...i have to buy 3 of it..which cost rm12... that left me with another rm38...fuel for 15 days without going out of shah alam...around rm15? no..more than that probably...that left me for about rm18++ more...i think i can survive without cigarette for half a month..maybe...just maybe...oh GOD!! please help me!

11 January2010 - my first mid sem xm for degree.

Sayu terpisah
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus angin rindu
begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu
hujan lebat mencurah kini
bagaikan tiada henti
kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
tak lagi kudengari
kau pergi.. pergi..
sepi tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
apa pun kata mereka
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

chuakkk!!

I believe.

I believe... Even though you are not with me, this is not how we part.
I believe... You're taking the long way back to me.
Inside all those past memories,
I make myself hurt and myself cry.

You didn't cry as much as me, without a lot of tears, you tried to give me a painless good-bye.
I know that you will one day return to me, that I believe,
I will wait for you, I'll do it for you.

I believe... Because I might hurt, you couldn't even cry.
I believe... You will return to me all the tears that I now shed.
I'll glimpse you come into my sight
And it'll make my tears fall.

You didn't cry as much as me, without a lot of tears, you tried to give me a painless good-bye.
I know that you will one day return to me, that I believe,
I will wait for you, I'll do it for you.

Was the world was dazzling before I met you?
Underneath that sky, all I'm left with are tears
I will save this place next to me.

You are the only reason...
That waiting gives me enough happiness.
Love is the only reason...
As days pass by,
If you forget the way, I'll be waiting
I do it for you.
I do it for you.

Bye2 2009 hello 2010

Had fun last nite...eventhough its quite tiring...being a runner is always tiring..
the bbq was great...

Thanks to everyone who participated and hope we can do this or something else again in the future :)

AC? Fun and funny moments. Drunks everywhere..they're pissing on the streets, arguing and throwing up.

Best fact[s] @ AC :

1. Afiq kalah pool
2. Lots of hot chicks (the yellow shirt is the one i remembered most)
3. Many drunks
4. Drunk indians fought again each other, drunk malays next table encouraging the fight to turn into a fist fight.
5. The arrogant 3-bucket-malay-bob-marley-wannabee threw up. FUCKED UP.
6. AC manager called in the police. The police came and the indians were saying "Ok, bro , take care" to each other. WTF? Before they were killing each other..now take care?
7. A few drunk Koreans/Chinese had fists fight at the parking lot. Bob Jah ran towards the police while calling up "Banggg bangg bangg!" << terbaekk an

Tiring day before Xmas.

24th of december..the year is ending...

Today..just after Mdm Jasmina's class.. fie and yeh decided to run some errands.
Our plans were:

1. Go to MARA building and take the application form there.
2. Go to TimeSquare and send fie's camera for servicing.


As planned...we went to KL after class..with the aim of MARA. We really want that MARA loan so damn much as we are hving difficulties on $$$$.

The journey was a bit tiring and challenging as there was heavy traffic due to one accident....
Nevertherless, we still continue our journey patiently (konon) ..
Had to park in Pertama Complex as this is my first time being here.
Many rumors say that no slippers, torn jean are allowed when u're visiting the MARA HQ.Phew, luckily someone told us beforehand...bcaus we saw some after-PMR kids get 'thrown' out as they arent wearing proper clothings. no slippers allowed!

The makcik guard told us, "Dik, datang balik pukul 2 boleh? Skrang ni lunch time la" .....
Sigh..so we went out and waited for an hour at a mingomingo outlet near there...
an hour after that, went to the guard again, got the pass...went up to 3rd floor...

Me: Aa.abang..saya nak apply MARA loan.
Bro: Ni nak apply utk bila yea? Utk taun dpan?
Me: Erk.. (discussing with fie)
Me: Yea...taun dpan.
Bro: Ooo...kalaw camtu..apply online yea? Sbb taun ni takda peruntukan da...borang pon takda
Me: Online? Apa website?
Bro: www.mara.gov.my
Me: OK.

WTF...if i'd known that it is much easier to apply online i would've done that from the beginning..zz

Ok then, after that...we went to Jelatek LRT station...park the car there..and board the LRT to somewhere near bukit nenas..we exchanged from lrt to monorail at bukit nenas...then to imbi. There we got off and went into berjaya times square...

Me: Hello, where is the canon service centre?
Info Lady: At the 9th floor, take the escalator on the right yea?
Me: Owryte!

We go round and round until we reach the 9th floor....and there it is...the canon shop.

We went inside and asked if we can claim and repair the camera or not...then the obasan told us..

Obasan: Noooooo. here is not service centre...you have to go to Canon in Shah Alam.
Me: Really?

WTF again! We went all the way to KL and wasted our energies and money to know that MARA can be applied online and the service centre is in Shah Alam...haizzzzzzz

Because of that, we decided to window shop. elle of course, not me.
One thing i realize, women/girls/females...when they are window shopping or shopping...they never got tired.
But, i still remember..they always complain when i park a bit far from the destination...they cant even walk a bit..but when it comes to shopping..they are willing to walk all over the mall without complaining.. O_o

After the tiring walk...i've decided that we take a cab back to my car in jelatek...since the time is 5pm++ which means the public transport will be crowded and swarming with sweaty people..

Went back to the car and went to keramat to see my mom..it's been 3 weeks since we got separated...lollllll

and that's it..before i could get some rest..amirul texted me and wanted to hang out..so i got home and take a bath then went out again...for pool games....

GOOD GAME AMIRUL MUKMININ. YOU DO NOT ALWAYS WIN.

Tagged by Myza .

Rules : It's harder than it looks ! Copy to your own blog, erase my answers , enter yours , and tag twenty people including the person who tagged you . Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions .

They have to be real . Nothing made up ! IF the person before you had the same first initial , you must use different answers . You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question .

What is your name : Faris

A four Letter Word : FUCK

A boy's Name : Firdaus

A girl's Name : Farhanah

An occupation : Fireman

A color : Fluorescent

Something you'll wear : Foot wear by NIKE

A type of food : Friskies

Something found in the bathroom : Face towel

A place : Finland

A reason for being late : Fucked up!

Something you'd shout : FUCK YOU!

A movie title : F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Something you drink : Fizzy cola

A musical group : Fort Minor

An animal : Frog

A type of car : Ferrari Scuderia

A type of fruit : Fisang

The title of a song : Fuck U


TAG : nobody.

oh oh oh..

Nothing much to be updated..eh..actually there're lots!

but im gonna say a few things only cos im lazyyyyy
Ok, first thing first...i went to JB last friday - sunday...nothing much..just hanging around Ikram-gedik-Shah's house...tiap2 hari jugak makan ayam.
Morning means sleeping time...wake up in the evening...then bath + eat home..then go out lepaking habib or osman..that's what i've been doin in jb..oh yea..xcept for 2 places... Benafe Village and Nusajaya... here are some pictures while im in JB..







at benafe...i made a mistake by copying bob..i ordered pancakes...wtf...it was rm8.50 and look at the size of it..only 1/5 of the plate..zzzz..ok enough about jb..

next thing in my mind...
there is something going on...and i've been helping..that's all i have to say..hehe :D

ok next..classes are okay..met new friends...one with the same name as me...they're funny people...
what else what else???

ohh..today...15th december...had a nice 'date' ...hahah..thanks to YOU..xie xie...the food was great...and the dessert...terbaeeekkkk.. had kenny rogers and BR..woo woo...so stuffy...thanks again..you know who you are...

last but not least....i accept your challenge dude...i'll try and find a special someone by june 2010...:D

The Isle of Freedom

There was a cockcroach,
Running,
Running here,
Running there,
There was a giant,
Snoring,
Snoring... and snoring...,
There was a bee,
Buzzing,
Buzzing,... and buzzing...,

Oh my, is this what i've been searching for?
The isle that i have been longed for?
NO!
I don't think so, and i don't feel THIS is what I am dreaming of.
Alas, it is this that I have, for now...,
And I am thankful to GOD for it.

Thou shant stop I,
For I,
Shall continue my journey,..
Till' I find my dream, the Isle of Freedom.


- pais -

Finally.

Its 12:46 am and its Eid Adha today!
I've just arrived in Dato' Keramat , K.Lmpur and finally got to on9 myself. Phew! (Damn im addicted to the NET!)

My first thing is CW. Then i across some blog posts..including one of my classmate's...saying things about her new class (TESL Bachelor)...oh yea..im taking Bachelor in Education (TESL) now..hoorayyy!!! means its tougher...and much much more challenging....

She was saying that she's frustrated with the overcrowded class and having to sit behind 30 heads..lmao..
As for me... i dont care much about that...except that it's all becoming like when i first came here as a diploma student...

I have this thing,weakness..where its hard for me to communicate or get to know NEW people or be friendly to them, unless, they make the effort first. So, there it goes, being alone..again..like i was before.
Luckily this time i have my other 7 friends from same cohort..and a friend (senior) who introduced me to KUTPM at first...hoorayyy for her to! Until today...i've known the senior, Raja Nurul Izah for about..hmm...5-7 years? or more? lols.

This weakness, i have to overcome it..but how ah? Anyone help me??
Im just scared and too stiff to make conversations...even with guys?? Plus, i feel inferior (is it the right word?) to them...and i feel like they dont care about me at all (haha of course they dont) ... like i dont exist at all... damn! how can i manage to present in front of these 'aliens' ????? Im gonna have troubles and stomach aches.

Oh God, pls help me.

Happy Eid Adha to all muslims!

unforgettable nightmares (14th/15th nov 09)

The story begins early in the morning, when i was stalking (as usual)...i ran into a friend's status... saying something like bye bye world or what .. i kinda forgot..
but what i remember the most is that she..(yeah its a her/female) has taken 5-6 panadol actifast just because she broke up with someone... come on la...its not the end of the world yet.. (mesti kaw baca ann hehe)
Alah bisa tegal biasa orang kata..kaw rilek je..kata la baru pes taim kene gni? wkwkwkwkwk ir ir ir ir

Due to my gentle giant mode...i decided to go back to shah alam earlier.. ya lor.. dont want to lose a friend because of stupid reason like that...

So, after packing up.. said bye bye to W.F.S .. (sorry tak sempat bye2 kat W.B n wife n daughters.).. i went to my car and started my journey...

Otw to my destination..i suddenly remembered that G.K said he wants to hangout with me..so i stopped at Dungun and had chicken rice there with G.K.
It was okay...but not good enough ( i look for quality not quantity )

after around 2 hours at dungun..i continue my journey...

Here's one of the nightmare i had...
When i was in K.Terengganu..i went to Esso and fill up my fuel @ rm30..rm30 only...
I thought at the beginning of LPT (Lebuhraya Pantai Timur) there is a gas station..but my thought went wrong... damn!
Its almost empty..and the next RnR is about 50km...so..while holding my bladder...i slowly (100km/h) drove and pray to GOD that the fuel will last till the next stop...

Phew...just when it hits below empty bar...i arrived at the RnR...thank GOD!

Then, i continue my journey..again...
While i was driving..the radio plays one song that i couldnt possible forget..
Whenever i hear or sing that song it reminds me of someone...
Okaylah..dont want to hide it..i'll say it..that person is Aya (hahaha!)
Because i know she likes that song..and suddenly tears started running down my cheeks.. wtf?? what happened? I was crying like hell while listening to that song and texting aya.. is it because i really miss her..or is it because i was lonely on the dark road with the heavy rains?
It could be both..but one thing for sure..i think i do miss and gonna keep missing the ever lovable Aya...
Sorry sebab selalu nganjing kaw..cynda pon rindu kaw dowh..
Kaw byk bagi nasihat kat aku..tenkss.. hehehee.. (to all readers..there is no any special feelings attached here...just a little bit of friendship feel)



Okay,..disebabkan ke-gay-an aku thu..i cannot concentrate on driving...plus it was raining heavily! And the road is dark with not much cars travelling..tiba2 teringat Paranormal Activity..damn!
ps: oh aya..da tgk dow cite thu...tipu la sia

Ok..so the next nightmare...happened just an hour ago..after we (me , myza , akak myza a.k.a ira, and sera) lepaking and eating @ Williams..a myspace friend of myza...asked her to come and lepak-ing @ rafi bistro..so we went there...
those guys..haha..no comment..tabley masok aa..perangai laen gila...ye la..remaja lagi dorang..hak hak hak!

So, that's all for this update...ciao...

Terengganu

Its been a year, or maybe more, since i last came to this state. I've been dying to come here and visit the old places,eat the things i've always eat, and do many other things,...including having reunion with my fellow primary school classmates.

After all, this place has half of my current age memories. I lived here for almost 10 years (now im 20, so it is 1/2 of my age)

And so it began, the journey back to Terengganu. I drove all the way from Brunsfield - Rafi Bistro - Digital Mall - Karak Highway - LPT. After few hours of driving i began to lose vision...i was sleepy! Plus, there was no people/cars on the highway..and it was really foggy that nite. Because i couldnt hold my eyes much longer..i've decided its time to switch..so i woke kirin up. Finally,..phew.i can relax a bit....
its been a while since i last have a long distance driving....im too old for this..lmao

Nothing much, ...we arrived in KT at about 2am ..went to eat..then arrived at kirin's house at around 3am

The journey was tiring and boring. Because all the way only two of us in the car, and only i was singing to the song. Hahaha..kirin was snoring like hell

I went to almost all places i felt like to. Met people who i used to meet a lot of times... eg: abang jual kopok... he still remember us...im so glad...
and my stomach...was shocked by all those stuff i havent eat for long time (kopok lekor mainly) ... dang... my stomach hurts..but i bare with it till the next day it vanishes itself.. :D

Oh ya, many things seems to have changed around here...like...many one-way road is opened (or two ways become one way)...

Nevertheless, its still the same old KT which i love..except for one thing..it's becoming into 2nd K.Lumpur. The traffic..!@#!##!...jam jam jam? no more peaceful roads in terengganu..haizzzzz

Anyway, that's for the update so far..i think i've got lots of stuff before..but forgot already...



PS: I'm GAY now.. lolllsssss

Great And Young / Gentle And Youthful

tagged by myza

What's your favorite word or phrase?
cb

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
nobody...i just woke up (its 4:37pm now)

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
DotA-ing with khairul asyraf n ikram shah

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
mamai2 lagay

What is your favorite holiday?
dunno...

What is the last thing you said aloud?
ci*aiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!

What is the best ice cream flavor?
mocha + mint kot?

What was the last thing you had to drink?
Bleu Mineral Water

What are you wearing right now?
jeans and jeans only

What was the last thing you ate?
Lexus chocolate biscuit

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
erm..no

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
makkah, iceland, japan, las vegas, hawaii, ...everywhere lohhhh

Ever go camping?
ya. nothing to brag about

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
lost tak..kunci kete jatoh ada...mmg ngeri gila ah..kena amek balek nak tak nak...

Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
:) :D ^_^

Do you drink your soda from a straw?
sometimes

What did your last text message say?
Inbox : "Its ok..."
Sent: "Nsk grg pataya 1, nsk goreng paprik 1, nsk goreng sifud 1, teh o ais 2. Tngkat 14 lif b" (to Jailani cafe)


Are you someone's best friend?
i dont know?

What are you doing tomorrow?
game, help people, go to pak long's house

Where is your mom right now?
at keramat ..kl

Look to your left, what do you see?
a rothman's glass full of cigarette butts

What color is your watch?
silver kot?

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
lots of beautiful aussies!!! hawtttt..gdday mateee

Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
yes n im not very fond of it...that thing hurts my f***ing back...

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
both

Do you have any friends on myspace that you actually hate?
ntah...

Do you have a dog?
nayyy

Last person you talked to on the phone?
ane dari jailani kot..dia cakap "Order sampai"

Are you happy?
im not sure

Where are you right now?
in front of my laptop..typing in this survey lah mofo!

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
myself

Last song listened to?
ramli sarip - perjalanan hidup

Last movie you saw?
not quite sure......momok the movie? or was it Perfect Getaway?

Are you allergic to anything?
so far .. no kot...xcept for that hair gel i bought frm the saloon...my hands are full of spots when i use it...maybe because of the ingredients?

Are you jealous of anyone?
yeah...im jealous of religious people..when can i be like them????? laghoooooo sangat nehhh!

Are you married?
hell no

Is anyone jealous of you?
ntah

Do any of your friends have children?
children-to-be kot? hahahahahah

Do you hate anyone right now?
myself???

Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
depends..

How many kids do you want when you're older?
whatever God gives me

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
21??? 38??? 40 maybe???

How did u get one of your scars?
when i was in primary school...was cooking burger...the oil just jumped out and scarred my hand


ha myza ..da buat..upah mana???

lama sungguh gua tak mengepost..

Yup..its been a veerrrrrrrrrrrry long time since i last post...i was sooo busy (ya rite) ...that i dont have much time for this bloggy of mine...it was my diary actually!!?? Well, recent things that happened to me:

1. Celebrated Hari Raya (last month)
2. Finished my practicum (bye bye students T.T)
3. Still working on my reports (really?)
4. Met a few wonderful juniors..haha u know yourselves..no need me to introduce.
5. Am crazy and obsessed with Cafe' World. O_o

My latest quote: Be yourself, don't pretend to be someone you're not, if the people like you for who you are, that means you've won their heart, if not...they can FUCK OFF!

09/09/09

A unique date. Yet..it means that only after this day..it will be 5 years..since my dad passed away..
I still remember..that nite..when i got a call from my step mom...it was at around 8pm, 10th September 2004...when i was 15 years old..and PMR was just around the corner.
It was really shocking..eventhough i barely knew my dad (we didnt spend much quality nor quantity time together as mom n dad divorced when i was quite young)...
Whats more, I was the one who took all the burden to call up each my brothers, who were in different states,and told them about the news. I am still wondering how did i manage to do so.
But even with all those sadness and despair and regrets i have, im glad for ONE thing. That all of us (except mom) got together a few months or a month before he passed away. I dont know how and why, but i think GOD made us all think alike. My brothers and I amazingly thought the same thing, and went to Kelantan to see our dad. I was suprised to see my brothers there , who came from other states from me. We didnt even plan to be there at the same time. So, we had an unplanned vacation with dad...for the last time. It was quite a memory...and i would never forget that!

To Dad,
Hope you're okay 'there', since its Ramadhan now,i will always pray for you.

a post after so long

erm....not much to be updated..just ran into one song..hehehe
later gonna upload sme pictures of gila trip..!




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Rupanya gerimis, rupanya gerimis mengundang
Dalam tak sedar ku kebasahan

Pernah juga kau pinta perpisahan
Aku sangkakan itu hanyalah gurauan
Nyata kau serius dalam senyuman

( korus )
Bukan sekejap denganmu
Bukan mainan hasratku
Engkau pun tahu niatku
Tulus dan suci
Senang benar kau ucapkan
Kau anggap itu suratan
Sikit pun riak wajahmu
Tiada terkilan

Hanya aku separuh nyawa
Menahan sebak di dada
Sedangkan kau bersahaja
Berlalu tanpa kata
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan

( ulang dari korus )

Sia-sia kukorban selama ini
Jika kasihku, jika hatiku
Kau guris oh oh oh...
Dalam tak sedar ku menangis