Pain. Hate.

I really hate backstabbers ... but i realized just now ..what i did is actually backstabbing too..now i really hate myself! !@#!$#!%$^!%@!%

Good Story

A farmer’s donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it wasn’t worth it to save the donkey. He asked his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed shovels and began to shovel dirt into the well.

First, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone’s amazement he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well and was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. As the neighbors shoveled dirt on the animal, he shook it off and took a step up. Soon, all were amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off!

Life shovels dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

The donkey later came back and bit the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected, and the farmer died in agony from septic shock.

The Moral of this story:

* M1 - When you do something wrong and try to cover yourself, it always comes back to bite you!
* M2 - Remember the 5 simple rules to be happy:

1)- Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2)- Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
3)- Live simply and appreciate what you have.
5)- Expect less.
4)- Give more.

Laws of Life

Murphy’s First Law for Wives: If you ask your husband to pick up five items at the store and then you add one more as an afterthought, he will forget two of the first five.

The Salary Axiom: The pay raise is just large enough to increase your taxes and just small enough to have no effect on your take-home pay.

Miller’s Law of Insurance: Insurance covers everything except what happens.

First Law of Living: As soon as you start doing what you always wanted to be doing, you’ll want to be doing something else.

Weiner’s Law of Libraries: There are no answers, only cross-references.

Isaac’s Strange Rule of Staleness: Any food that starts out hard will soften when stale. Any food that starts out soft will harden when stale.

The Grocery Bag Law: The candy bar you planned to eat on the way home from the market is always hidden at the bottom of the grocery bag.

Lampner’s Law of Employment: When leaving work late, you will go unnoticed. When you leave work early, you will meet the boss in the parking lot.

These things..seems quite real..but dont get too attached to it as it is syirik.

Is your birthday day 1 of the month? You are very curious and dedicative. When you are interested in something, everything else has to wait. This is your quality. But if you learn to be more patient and complete what you have started, you will be successful in life. Your Love, You believe in love at first sight. You won't wait to learn more about the person. Vise versa, people who fail to impress you will hardly get a chance to be your friend. Your emotion is on the extreme. You can only love or hate, nothing in between and this often shows in your expression. Try not to end a relationship in a quarrel.

Is your birthday day 2 of the month? Your Life, You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance for self-control problem Your Love. Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your unrequited love. You are a romantic and loyal lover.

Is your birthday day 3 of the month? Your Life, Although you are innocent and romantic but your expression often mislead others that you are an active, fun loving kid. Because of your double personality, it's hard for others to really know the real you. You are careful and patient. Your Love, Your love is the greatest which often surprises others. No one can bring you to light when you are in love. Your confidence might lead you to the track your parents disagree.

Is your birthday day 4 of the month? Your Life, You usually think before acting which makes your life quite easy. But you often are the one who give yourself a hard time by being paranoid. People might not truly understand you but you are really nice to be around. You are cheerful and friendly. Your Love, Still water runs deep, that's what you are. You always surprise others with your new character when you are in love. Your love trap often comes unexpectedly and your love life is full of surprises.

Is your birthday day 5 of the month? Your Life, Although you are on the quiet side, but you enjoy excitement and changes. Routine is something you cannot stand. Because of your extreme confidence, you hardly ask others for opinion. You believe in leading your own life, and you have got the gift in doing so. Your Love, Nothing can stop you from making progress in your love life. Once you are in love, you feel the ownership of your lover. A third party can only makes your jealousy becomes worse.

Is your birthday day 6 of the month? Your Life, You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others. Your imagination is extremely unique. Your Love, Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship. Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness to your couple.

Is your birthday day 7 of the month? Your Life, You are sensitive to changes around you but your feeling is hardly expressed. You hate exaggerations. Under your quiet personality, you are rather stubborn and self-centered. These qualities are the force behind your extreme persistence. Your Love, You have enormous courage to please your lover. Your relationship often progress quickly.

Is your birthday day 8 of the month? Your Life, You have pleasant and friendly personality. People look up to your wit and imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete what you started, which sometimes create negative impact to people around you. Your Love, Falling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time, you are lucky. You fascinate people with good taste but you never have enough with one. Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts.

Is your birthday day 9 of the month? Your Life, You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow. Your Love, You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.

Is your birthday day 10 of the month? Your Life, You are very capable. If you are a woman, you have high chance to be a renowned workingwoman. If you are a man, your path to fame and honor is near. As an innovator, you are not a good follower. You are good in implementing your imagination and share it with others. You are always well dressed. Your Love, You often lose your love ones from being too jealous. You always feel like you own the person you fall in love with and that often blows your relationship.

Is your birthday day 11 of the month? Your Life, You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and some even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable. You are remarkably kind and moral person. Your Love, You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover will always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy to hand around the one you love.

Is your birthday day 12 of the month? Your Life, You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper. Your Love, You are willing to start off in one-sided love affairs because you strongly believe that you will eventually win his/her heart. On the other hand, once you are together, you always want to do things your way, which is often the fire starter. You usually run in and out of love quickly.

Is your birthday day 13 of the month? Your Life, You are sincere and easy going. Flattering and charming around are not your style. You care so much for freedom that often leads you to the difficult path. Because of your sincerity, most people find you easy to be around although you are sometimes too straightforward. Your Love, Your gentleness, care and sincerity make you an attractive person. Even though you don't intend to be charming, but you naturally are, especially in the eyes of opposite sex.

Is your birthday day 14 of the month? Your Life, You are so confident that sometimes you forget about the people around you. If you have to be in one of the two teams, you will choose to be in the winning team. On the other hand, you are kind and caring but above all, you care for your own benefits. Your imagination is unique and often gets implemented shortly after it comes across. Your Love, You will not get soft with the one you don't really like, no matter how hard he/she tries. But once you feel for someone you have chosen, there's no getting back.

Is your birthday day 15 of the month? Your Life, You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the outside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your temper shows. Your Love, You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long. This is why you hardly win a decent relationship.

Is your birthday day 16 of the month? Your Life, You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true. Your Love, You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight is not your style.

Is your birthday day 17 of the month? Your Life, You neither want to be interfered nor have the desire to mess with others' life. But you are friendly and occasionally a party animal. You are always in a circle of friends. You often do things in your own way that occasionally go beyond the acceptable limit. People may find you childish and not very attractive in that sense. Your Love, Your fun-loving character attracts opposite sex. Many of those are great. You often find yourself trapped among a few great guys while you have to choose only one.

Is your birthday day 18 of the month? Your Life, At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find you hard to be around. Your Love, You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity makes you very attractive.

Is your birthday day 19 of the month? Your Life, You are great in managing everything in your life and this is how you gain respect from others. Because of this quality, you sometimes feel that you are better than the rest. Extreme confidence might lead you to the wrong path. You are a free bird and want to lead your own life. Your Love, You love life is rather different from others'. When you are in love, nothing can stop you. You may often fight with your partner but, soon after that, you will make up in a way that surprises others.

Is your birthday day 20 of the month? Your Life, You are prudent, circumspect and take things seriously. Before you make any move, you will think of a few alternatives that might take a while. You are patient, imaginative and target oriented. You value friendship more than anything else. Your Love, You usually study your partner carefully before making any move. You never demand anything beyond the natural quality of that person. Your sincerity doesn't bring excitement in your love life but it brings deeply grown relationship.

Is your birthday day 21 of the month? Your Life, You are curious and a true follower. You can please someone so much that it seem like you are trying to charm that person. You hide your disagreement under your smiling face. This is a charming quality of yours. Your Love, You are quite unlucky in love. You are loved by someone you don't like while your dream person is so far away. Your love life is occasionally under turbulence. Sometimes you don't have the clear view of the guy/gal in your heart.

Is your birthday day 22 of the month? Your Life, You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn. You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual. Your Love, You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't let them get away without having hard time.

Is your birthday day 23 of the month? Your Life, You never live your life in the way others want you to. You are an independent individual who loves challenges and excitement. You are ready to ace with the result of your decision. You are usually the one your friends count on. Your Love, Because you love excitements, you occasionally get involved in forbidden love affairs. You may fall in love with a married person and no one can stop you from making progress. You are very charming, although you might not realize it.

Is your birthday day 24 of the month? Your Life, You are very optimistic and that's why you always enjoy life. You are gifted in entertaining others. Your friends love and trust you. You'll be the first they come to when they are in need of someone to speak their heart out. Your Love, Sometimes you fall in love just because you want to be in love, not that you really like that person. You always be seen as a sweet couple but you can't really get over your love ones from past. Your partner is usually crazy about you because you are remarkably charming and romantic.

Is your birthday day 25 of the month? Your Life, You are a warrior. No obstacle can stop you from reaching your goal. You always keep yourself busy. This quality plus your responsibility will eventually bring you success. Your Love, You adore your partner as the number one priority. You value your love one more than yourself. Your love is the greatest of all and your have potential to get married young.

Is your birthday day 26 of the month? Your Life, You are always curious and responsive to changes. Routine life is not the way you choose to live. Traveling is your favorite hobby because excitement is what you are after. Your Love, You will not stand being around the one you dislike. Your love comes and goes quickly. You can be deeply in love but soon after you will be looking around for the next one.

Is your birthday day 27 of the month? Your Life, You are sensitive and vulnerable. Tears often run down your cheeks even when the matter is not that bad. This might be the result from being to pessimistic. You might seem cold on the shell, but your inner self is a loving person. Your Love, You will be elegantly dressed, no matter how casually dressed your date may be. You are demanding in love and sometimes to an unacceptable extend.

Is your birthday day 28 of the month? Your Life, You are a capable person but you usually underestimate your own ability. This is the cause of missing numbers of opportunity to step forward. If you try to give yourself a chance, you can be successful in life. Try to see things on the bright side and you will be happier than ever. Your Love, You are quite unlucky in love. The one in your arm is not the one in your heart. Your love has so many ups and downs. You often chicken out before seeing any progress in love.

Is your birthday day 29 of the month? Your Life, You can trust your sixth sense. Life is exciting so routine job is not your interest. You have great ideas and fantastic imagination. You often feel tired of things and people around you. Your Love, You can tell what's in the mind of another person just from looking into his/her eyes. You are paranoid and jealous and these are the cause of fights between you and your lover. Sometimes the thing you believe in is just your imagination.

Is your birthday day 30 of the month? Your Life, You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Although you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities. Your Love, You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.

Is your birthday day 31 of the month? Your Life, Your emotion is hard to predict. You can be sad this minute and happy in the next. People might find it difficult to follow your emotion and understand you. You tend to take things seriously. Your Love, You take your time to study a person before falling in love. Once you decide that he or she is the one, no one can stop you from making progress, even your partner.

Birthday again.

This is the recorded version of the bday suprise-which-is-not-so-suprise.

My first try!

hahaa bapak bughok...takpa..nanti lama2 makin pandai makin ok la.. :P

Happy Birthday Kiah/Kakai/Echa!

Exams are finally over!!!

first post of this year.. 012-4661128 is the number i got.

Here'​s your new digit​s:​ (​area code)​
016- im a girl
012- im a guy
019- im both

1st numbe​r,​ put what you are :
1 - gay
2 - taken​
3 - singl​e and what ever happe​ns,​ happe​ns
4 - singl​e and like someo​ne but no chanc​e with that perso​n (​broke​n)​
5 - taken​ & lovin​g every​ secon​d of it
6 - taken​ and likes​ someo​ne else
7 - like i'm telli​ng?​
8 - singl​e and like someo​ne
9 - singl​e and like someo​ne that likes​ you back
0 - datin​g aroun​d

2nd numbe​r,​ put your curre​nt Mood :
1 - Nervo​us
2 - Sad
3 - Cheer​ful
4 - Angry​/​mad
5 - happy​
6 - Confu​sed
7 - Just fine
8 - Sleep​y
9 - Lonel​y

3rd numbe​r is the color​ of your shirt​ :
1 - Black​
2 - Pink
3 - Yello​w
4 - Red
5 - Blue
6 - Green​
7 - White​/​Gray/​brown​
8 - Purpl​e
9 - Orang​e

4th Numbe​r is the month​ you were born in :
1- Jan or Feb
2 - June
3 - April​
4 - May
5 - July or March​
6 - Aug - Sept
8 - Oct
9 - Nov
0 - Dec

What numbe​r is your Favor​ite Color​ :
1 - Black​
2 - White​
3 - Red
4 - Blue
5 - Green​
7 - Purpl​e
8 - Pink
9 - Yello​w
0 - other​

6th Numbe​r is your favor​ite sport​
1- Socce​r
2- Other​
3- Cheer​ leadi​ng
4- Hocke​y/​Field​ Hocke​y
5- Footb​all
6- danci​ng
7- Baseb​all/​softb​all
8- Tenni​s
9- baske​tball​
0- Volle​yball​

7TH NUMBE​R WHAT R U
1- Gemin​i
2- Capri​corn
3- Sagit​tariu​s/​Aries​
4- Virgo​
5- Leo
6- Tauru​s
7- Libra​
8- Aquar​ius
9- Scorp​io
0- piece​s/​Cance​r




012-4661128

Bye bye 2008, holla 2009!

Hm..tatkala jam mnunjukkan 12 a.m...maka berakhirlah tahun 2008 ...yg tinggal hanyalah memori2 yg masih segar diingatan...harap2 dia tahun 2009...zaman gelap ku akan berakhir jua..

New year? Cakap sal new year...mesti skang ramai ngah berpusu-pusu ke tmpat2 yg happening , sunyi, dan sebagainya ngan aktiviti dan harapan masing2. Tapi aku...duk umah je la. Layan blues sorang2..hahaha...salah sapa? salah aku jugak...walaupun da ramai pelawa aku ke sana sini...tp aku MALAS!..
dgn keadaan yg pening skang ni..aku cam malas gila la nak pegi tmpat crowded...makin pening ada la...ckup la skali ja aku sambut new year kat tmpat crowded gila a.k.a Bukit Bintang...tu pon gi ngan kazen aku...taun 2001...
Ingatan tu maseh segar....tatkala aku di sembur2 ngan air setan (beer dan sekutunya) dan juga spray party thu..rimas aku! Tp ada satu part yg aku syiok masa tu...jalan crowded...berhimpit-himpit cam sardin..terlanggar-langgar ngan amoi..wooooo
best...tp stakat tu je la...(lahanat tol aku)..

Erm..panjang lak aku taip blog..maklumlah kesunyian..heh
Kepada sapa yg baca blog ni..maseh ah...sesaje je...
Erm..pe lagi nak cite?
Oh ye...azam tahun baru...erm...berenti merokok? Yea yea..aku akan usahakan...bkn demi sesiapa yg laen..ttpi demi diri aku jugak...aku tanak mengulangi peristiwa yg mnimpa ayah ngan pak cik aku yg tersayang...dua dua nye sakit jantung sebab hisabbb rokok ni...aku tanak mak aku sedih aku pon terima nasib yg sama...plus...orang keliling aku merangkap 2ndhand smoker...lg teruk effect dia...aku tanak kehilangan orang2 tersayang aku...tu ja...so far so good..aku tak beli DUNHILL hahahaha...aku akan stop (insya-ALLAH) lepas da hisab semua jenis rokok kat kdai...heheheh

Ohhh..rasa cam nak taip panjang lagi...tp takda idea!
Jap..lek sap kok lu...


hmm...ok baru gua teringat balek...starting tahun 2008..masa bye2 kan tahun 2007..aku lepak kat pool ampang ngan aizat izat n amir kot...masa tu mmg seronok ah maen pool..ada pakcik 4 orang tu ...maen..bila masok je bola terus jerit "Happy New Year!" ..so kitorang pon ikot la dorang gak...hahaha...macam sial. ok.

hohhoho..skang aku tak sorang...ijat datang tman aku lak.hooray! hehehe
so dota time! chalo bette!

Cerita sdih..taktau la da post ke blom..tp post je la!

Mak.....

Terlalu bosan rasanya duduk membilang hari.....
Dah hampir sepuluh bulan mak pergi,
Rasanya baru semalam mak peluk kiter kan
sejuk syahdu masih terasa lagi nih....
Mak tau tak.....
itu lah pertama kali mak peluk anak mak yang nakal ni sejak kiter dewasa.....
dan itu juga terakhir kali nya.
Emmmm...rupanya mak dah tau mak nak pergi jauh.....
nak tinggal kan anak2 mak..... nak tinggal kan dunia fana ni.....
mak macam dan sedia.....
Seminggu sebelum tu.....mak dah menganyam tikar mengkuang 3 helai.....
Akak kata sampai ke pagi mak anyam tikar tuu....
tanpa rasa mengantuk, tanpa rasa letih..... kakak pun rasa hairan.....
mak tak penah buat gitu..... pastu mak pasang radio kecil di sebelah mak.....
tapi mak seolah2 tak sedar bahawa rancangan radio tu siaran diam ......
kengkadang siaran indonesia ...mak terus tekun menganyam...
Rupanya tikar yang telah mak siapkan tu di gunakan untuk mengiringi
mak ke kuburan...
Pastu mak sapu sampah sekeliling rumah bersih2....
pastu mak jemur karpet-karpet. ..
pastu mak ubahkan sofa ke tempat lain..mak biarkan ruang tu kosong..
rupanya kat situ jenazah mak diletakkan..
paling menarik sekali mak bgtau kat maner sume duit dan barang kemas
mak..
ada kat dalam almari.....
ada kat dalam dalam beg.....
ada dalam ASB.....
ada kat dalam Tabung Haji..
mak cakap tak berapa cukup lagi....
ada kat dalam gulung tikar.....
masa tu mak perasan takk..??
kiter gelak sakan bila mak bgtau duit dalam gulung tikar...kiter
kata mak ni memang pesenn lama laaa...
mak cuma gelak jer...
eeemmm..bahagiaa nya saat ituu..
Mak.....
Hari tu hari sabtu 18/08/1999 pukul 3 petang mak tiba2 s akit perut.....
bila malam tu kiter sampai dari KL.....mak dah dalam kesakitan.
Akak dan abang kat kampong semua dah pujuk.....
mak tetap takmau pi hospital.... .
dan cuma tinggal giliran kiter sahaja yang belum pujuk..
Mak kata mak takmau duduk dalam hospital.... .
tapi kiter berkeras juga pujukk..
nanti di hospital ada doktor...ada ubat untuk mak..
kat rumah kami hanya mampu sapu minyak dan urut jer..
Mak tetap tak bersetuju... ..mak memang degil..
tak salah, anak mak yang ni pon mengikut perangai mak tu..
Tapi akhirnya bila melihat keadaan mak makin teruk....
mak sakit perut sampai nak sentuh perut mak pon sakit kami adik
beradik sepakat hantar juga mak ke hospital.... ..
Mak.....
amponkan kami semua...
kami nak mak sehat...
kami sayang mak...
kami tak mau mak sakit...
kami terpaksa juga hantar mak ke hospital....
ampon kan kami yer mak....
Mak.....
Malam itu abang bawa mak k e hospital dan itu lah pertama dan
terakhir kali mak naik kereta kiter...
Masih terbayang betapa ceria dan gembiranya mak, kiter kata nak beli kereta....
Mak asyik tanya ajer..cukup ker duitt..
kiter jawab pula...kalau tak cukup, mak kan banyak duit... mak gelak ajerr.....
Lepas tu bila kereta kiter sampai....mak buat kenduri kesyukuran.. ....
Dan kiter masih ingat lagi...bila kiter eksiden terlanggar kelinn naik motor.....
Punya la kiter takut...kiter warning kakak kiter jangan sesekali bgtau kat
mak.....
Bila balik sahaja kampong....kiter cepat-cepat simpan keta dalam garaj.....
Tapi mak perasan juga bumper depan kemek...mak tanya kenapa...?
Selamba jerr kiter jawab terlangar pokok bunga.....
Mak....tujuan kiter menipu tu supaya mak tak risau...
Maafkan kiter kerana sampai mak pergi mak tak tau hal sebenar...
mak, kiter menipu mak kan ...ampon kan kiter....
Mak.....
Jam 4.30 pa gi 19/08 /2006
Bila tiba aja kat hospital.... nurse tengah balut mak dengan kain putih.....
mak mesti nampak kiter jatuh terduduk di lantai hospital...
Mesti mak nampak abang cium dahi mak.....
Mesti mak nampak akak baca doa untuk mak....
Mesti mak nampak adik terduduk kat kerusi kat sudut itu...
mesti mak nampak semua tu kann...kann. .kannn
Mak tau tak....
Pagi tu balik dari hospital jam 5.20 pagi kiter mamandu dalam keadaan separuh sedar...
Adik kat sebelah diam melayan perasann...
Kenangan bersama mak berputar dalam kepala ini...
jalan di depan terasa makin kelam.....
airmata dah tak mampu di tahan....
Masa tu seandainya apa-apa terjadi di jalan itu kiter rela...
Namun alhamdulillah akhirnya kiter sampai juga...
di sebab kan pagi masih awal, jadi jalan tu lenggang..kosong. ...sekosong hati ini.....
Sepanjang perjalanan terasa kedinginan subuh itu lain benar
suasananya.. ... terasa syahdu dan s ayu gitu...dinginnnn. ....
Mak.....
Kiter masih ingat lagi...
Kiter baca AlQuran kat tepi mak temankan mak...
Jam 11.00 pagi mak di mandi kan .....
Anak2 mak yang pangku masa mak mandi....
Mak mesti rasa betapa lembut nya kami mengosok seluruh tubuh mak.....
Kiter gosok kaki mak perlahan lahan.....
Mak perasan tak...?
Makcik yang mandikan mak tu pujuk kiter.....
Dia kata..." dikk...jangan nangis...kalau sayang mak jangan buat
gitu...jangan nangis ya.."
Bila makcik tu kata gitu...
lagi laaaa laju airmata ni..tapi kiter kawal supaya tak menitik atas mak....
Mak.....
Sampai takat ini surat ni kiter tulis..... kiter nangis ni.....
Ni kat dlm bilik...baru pukul 4.00 pagi.... Takder orang yang bangun lagi.....
kiter dengar nasyid tajuk "anak soleh" kiter sedih...kiter rindu kat mak..!
Takpa la.....nanti bila kita selesai sembanyang subuh, kiter baca yassin untuk mak...
mak tunggu ya..!
Mak..
Sebelum muka mak di tutup buat selamanya... .
Semua anak2 mak mengelilingi mak...menatap wajah mak buat kali terakhir....
Semua orang kata mak seolah2 senyum aja...
Mak rasa tak....masa tu kiter sentuh dahi mak....
kiter rasa sejukkkk sangat dahi makk.....
Kiter tak mampu nak cium mak...kiter tak daya....
kiter tuliskan kalimah tauhid kat dahi mak dengan air mawar...
Airmata kiter tak boleh tahan....
Mak mesti ingat kan yang anak mak ni jadi imam solat jenazah untuk mak...
tapi kite suruh tok imam bacakan doa sebab kite sebak....
Jam 12 tengahari mak diusung keluar dari rumah....
Akak pula dah terkulai dlm pelukan makcik...
badan akak terasa panas...
makk...anak mak yang seorang tu demam....
Mak tauu...cuma akak sorang saja anak mak yang tak mengiringi mak ke tanah perkuburan.. .
Mak.....
Hari2 ku lalui tanpa kewujudan mak lagi...
Begitu terasa kehilangan mak...boleh kata setiap malam selepas
maghrib anak mak ini berendam airmata...
Dan sampai satu tahap....masa tu malam jumaat selepas maghrib...
Selepas kiter baca yassin ngan kawan-kawan. ....
entah kenapa biler kat bilik kiter keluarkan gambar2 mak pastu apa lagi...
semakin kiter tenung terasa semakin sayu...tangisan tak dapat dibendung...
Mak tauu...kiter cuba bertahan... memujuk diri sendiri tapi tak juga reda...
Kiter rasa nak telefon mak... nak cakap dengan mak....
anak mak yang ni dah tak betul kan ...????
Dan akhirnya dalam sedu sedan itu kiter telefon kampong...
Kiter cakap dengan kakak..kiter nangis lagi ... Puas la kakak memujuk kiter...
Akak kata..." tak baik laa nangis aje..doa lah untuk mak..nanti kalau
gini ajer mak yang susah kat sana ..."
Dan akhirnya akak juga nangis ..... Agaknya mak nampak adegan tu...
sebab malam jumaat kata orang roh balik rumahh... mengharap sedekah da ri anak2 nya...
Mak tau tak...di saat itu kerinduan terasa menusuk sehingga ke hulu hati...
rasa nyilu sangat... menusuk-nusuk sehingga terasa begitu sakit dalam dada ni....
Sampai sekarang bila kerinduan itu menjelma...hanya sedekah al-fatihah kiter berikan.....
Mak....
cukup la sampai sini dulu....
kawan kiter dah ketuk pintu bilik tu.... kejap lagi kami nak pergi solat subuh kat masjid...
selalunya, kiter yang bawak mak naik motor kan ....
kali ni kiter jalan kaki dengan kawan pulak... esok kiter ingat nak tulis surat kat ayah pula....
Mula2 kiter tak tau nak hantar mana surat nih...
pastu kawan kiter bgtau...simpan je buat kenangan..
Kiter cuma tau alamat ni aje... Takper yer mak...kiter kasi orang lain baca...
Kiter stop dulu...sebab kawan kiter dah lama tunggu tu...
akhir kata untuk mak, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH dan jutaan terima kasih
kerana membesarkan kiter... memberi seluruh kasih sayang dari kecil sampai masuk sekolah.. sampai masuk unibesiti..
sampai kiter boleh rase naik kapal terbang... boleh rasa duduk kat negara orang...
sampai akhir hayat ini jasa mak tak akan mampu kiter balas..
Sekian terima kasih.


Yang Benar
Anak mak yang dah tak degil


p/s Bagi yang ada emak , tunjukkan lah kasih sayang anda sementara ada sedikit masa lagiii.....

Goodbye

Good bye last year..welcome new year...

Selamat Tahun Baru Ma'al Hijrah 1430!
Maaf kepada semua yang telah kulakukan kesilapan.
Im very very sorry. For the reservations i made and then canceled. For whom i've hurt..especially u.. Ms. Emo.
Hopefully this new year ...i wil be able to do what i intend to do...azam beb!

its so breezy...

the wind blowing...dis is the first time i feel it...i feel it..i feel it!!!
blehhhh!!!

143 in 23

♥MALAY ; aku cinta kamu / saya sayang awak
♥ENGLISH ; i love you
♥POLISH ; ja kocham cibie
♥FRENCH ; je t'aime
♥HINDI ; hum tumhe pyar karte hae
♥CZECH ; miluji te
♥SLOVAKIAN ; lu'bim ta
♥ITALIAN ; ti amo
♥UKRAINIAN ; ya tebe kahayu
♥GERMAN ; ich libe dich
♥CHINESE ; wo ai ni
♥GREEK ; s' agapo
♥HAWAIAN ; aloha wau ia oi
♥LITHUIANIAN ; tav myliu
♥KOREAN ; sa rang hae
♥JAPENESE ; aishiteru
♥ROMANIAN ; te ubsec
♥BOSNIAN ; volim te
♥ALBANIAN ; te dua
♥FILIPINO ; mahal kita
♥SPANISH ; te amo
♥PORTUGESE ; amo te
♥ARABIAN ; annah be hebic

cRaZy NiTe?

I was resting alone (all my housemates were out) on my fav spot (near my lappy) ... when i suddenly started thnking of something...and it really bothers me! I searched everywhere for that thing...and 'it' is nowhere to be found...fuck! I rushed down into Basement 2, reached my car...searched in my car...
bla bla bla...still..i couldnt find 'it'! Then i drove out of B2, (while leaving my C902,my cigarettes) at home..went to nearest 7e11 (which is inside a Shell station), i asked the guy there... "Do u have 'it'?" , and he searched or 'it'...and lastly gave up and says, "Sorry we dont have 'it'...then i rush myself to Petronas station and asked for 'it'...still..with dissapointing answer of "No". I didnt give up, so i went to TESCO Extra nearby (at 11:50 pm)....i parked..and ran inside...just to hear the P.A announcing , "We will be closing soon..thank you for coming and shop with us". Damn! I didnt get the chance to go inside at all! ..
And so on, i try my luck at Esso station..and finally..'it' was there!
I finally got my nail clipper...fuck these long nails are bothering me since last week! HAHAHAHAA
Stupid? Yeah i think so too..after i got back and see my housemates already at home..and i told them the journey i went ..with a reply "Ni bkn pengepit kuku ke atas laptop ni?" .. WHAT THE FUCK?????!!!!!!!

Je suis très désolé

I'm so sorry,
Thus i don't want this happening
Ooh i wish i could rewind back the time,
How foolish i am,
Stubborn as i am,
Why? Why? Why?
Fuck! I don't know why!
To me,
just you being there,
has already made my day,
no matter how tired,
or moody i am that day,
Oh,
I just don't know what to say,
For I'm blabbering in this tone of a poet?
Ha ha ha,
foolishness,
came to me..
Alas,
for true LOVE doesnt need words.

Good bye teenagers!

That's what happen last nite for Shahira binti Mohd Shafiek (if im not mistaken)...
her beloved bf,a friend of mine/housemate/classmate...did a suprise partay for her birthday..aaa..so sweet la lu zat! haha...n for the first time yesterday...i ate a whole burger at Burger King...all due to the challenge and bet i had with aizat...which was...me eating the burger n him drinking milk (i think he's a lactose intolerrant person but mybe not) ...
And also..zat..kalaw kaw bca ni...sumpah dowh..smalam kaw mmg la cool n macho abes...first time open table sjak kenal lu? hahaha jk jgn marah...
Last but not least...they were sweet... suaping cakes each other... congrats on you,
(Aizat ///)

12 12 12

Last nite, sharply at 12 am , 12 / 12 / 2008.. i did it.
The thing i've been waiting n waiting for some time...
With some friends who knew wishing me luck...thanks all...
Eventhough im not sure how it ends up..im GLAD i did what i always wanted to..hehehehehe
and to Ms. K ...thanks for that kind yet sophicsticated and very delicate answer... i know you're trying hard not to hurt me (just an opinion) .. so I THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
I guess you just needed more time...
Yeah i know im rushing things a bit...and hell i regret that a lot! HAHAHAHA
Hope things will b better in the future...
Lastly, this is for you ...


The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

An update.

Since the unknown shouter named Perogol and Perogol Bersiri keep asking me to update..so i shall update...
My recent activities are...holidays! XD
Plus, i have a crush on someone..
And oh, im running low on cash since after hari raya....aiya..spent too much!

I will update more (i have lots to catch up!) as soon as im really free and back to KL or Shah Alam...i havent uploaded the photos of me in Indonesia..(sorry auntie!) ...and many more..pangkor...and before that some other places...haiz...been very lazy lately...stab me and force me to update pls!

Lastly..out..DotAing and chatting.

PS: I'll update more soon!

A joyful day!

Today, 1st October 2008 , as well as 1st Syawal 1429.. is the day muslims celebrate their 1 month of fighting...by fasting. It supposed to be a joyful day for everyone...but i guess not me. I had few things that made me sad and not as joy as everyone else...but i'll try not to be sad. It has been days since i've been sad...and today my sadness add up when these things happened.....
Early in the morning....due to the excitedness last nite...i overslept and missed my morning Raya prayer...dang! Then...when i was eating i was asked to be a runner .... for ice and mee...whoo...nevermind that...due to my carelessness...i scratched my car after i bumped into the gate...!@#@!%!#^
Anyway...this is a picture i took just now with my new baju raya...expensive maa! first time in my life i spend so much on clothings for raya....i guess My Dark Age needs a change..i define year 2008 is my Dark Age (zaman gelap) as im a total ass in this year!